Month 71 – More Studies on Early Salvage Radiation Therapy

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With the change in my PSA over the last year, you can bet that I’ve been seeking every bit of information as to what it means and what to do about it. One of my go-to resources for the latest information in the field has been The “New” Prostate Cancer Info Link.

On 21 September, they published the following blog post that really piqued my interest:

Very early salvage radiation has up to fourfold better outcomes and saves lives

It’s certainly a topic of discussion for my next urologist visit in December. By the study’s definition, I’m still in the “very early” group—the group with the best survival if salvage radiation therapy (SRT) is started while I’m still in that group.

If we have to go down that path, my biggest concern with starting SRT is knowing that we’re actually radiating where the cancer is located. That concern is amplified if imaging can’t show where the cancer’s actually at, and we just radiate the prostatic bed because that’s what makes the most sense. Why risk some long-term, potentially nasty side effects on something so uncertain? (Yes, I know nothing is certain dealing with cancer.)

Of course, this is just one study and making a decision on it alone would probably be unwise.

We’ll just have to wait for the December PSA readings to come back and go from there.

On a happier note, I took a little drive through the country last week to tackle a few things on my travel bucket list: October Odyssey: The Mountain West. Check it out if you want to see what it was all about.

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Cimarron Canyon State Park, New Mexico

Say what? Medical jargon leaves cancer patients feeling lost in translation

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Whether its topsy-turvy language or murky medical jargon, most cancer patients run up against a “lost–in-translation” moment with their doctors. Writer Diane Mapes and Fred Hutch experts weigh in on the importance of good patient-doctor communication.

Source: Say what? Medical jargon leaves cancer patients feeling lost in translation

Month 70 – Sharing Awareness

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We’re about half-way through Prostate Cancer Awareness Month and it seems as there’s been some progress in getting the word out. More organizations seem to be helping to increase awareness than in the past, and that’s a good thing.

I’ll have to admit that my own approach to PCAM has changed slightly. I’m more inclined to tell people to educate themselves before making the decision to test.

Those of us who have been dealing with prostate cancer understand how complex, convoluted, conflicting, and confusing it can be. If you’ve never entertained the notion that you can get prostate cancer, you probably haven’t paid much attention to the raging debates in the field. DRE or no DRE? PSA test or no PSA test? Over-treatment versus under-treatment? Active surveillance versus treatment? That’s why it’s so important to educate yourself before being tested.

One of my former managers always said, “If you can’t stand the answer, don’t ask the question.” Your decision to get screened for prostate cancer is exactly that: your decision. You have to be comfortable with either path you take, and the best way to make that decision is by being educated. Please take a few moments this month—Prostate Cancer Awareness Month—to learn more about prostate cancer and how it can affect you. You can start with my Resources page.

I finally made my family and friends aware of my detectable PSA shortly after my visit with my urologist in August. There was concern from those who responded but, on the whole, the reaction was good. I knew that sitting on this for a year would cause some deserved criticism, too, but they seemed to understand my rationale.

It’s a relief to have it out in the open now. As one of my readers wrote on his own blog, “A burden shared is a burden halved.” Yep. It is. (Sorry, I can’t find the quote again to give credit where credit is due!)

On the whole, I’ve been able to push aside the emotions and thoughts that the cancer may be returning, and it feels good to be reengaged in the world. The next PSA test is in December.

Now if I can just get used to the fact that it’s dark when my alarm goes off in the morning… It wasn’t that long ago that the sun shining through my east-facing bedroom window woke me up and not the alarm. Autumn and shorter days are here! (In San Diego, shorter days are about the only indicator of it being autumn.)

Day 2,113 – A Visit with the Urologist

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Well that went just as I expected it would:

  • No explanation as to why my PSA is where it’s at and why it’s doing what it’s doing (yo-yo readings).
  • No willingness to state with any certainty whether I’ll experience biochemical recurrence (BCR) at some point in the future.
  • No meaningful discussion of next steps until we know what we’re dealing with.
  • Retest PSA in December.

So we go back into the wait, retest, and wait some more mode for the foreseeable future. I guess that’s okay, but I’m a pretty binary guy, so it really would be nice to know that, yes, the cancer is coming back or, no, it’s not. At least then you can work to come to terms with the answer even if it’s the one no one wants to hear.

We did talk some about using other imaging mechanisms to see if they can pick up on any micro-metastases if the December results are worse than where we’re at now. We also talked a little about salvage radiation therapy, hormone therapy, and the timing of each but, again, nothing that I didn’t already know from my own research.

We also discussed the recent papers that indicated BCR at 0.03 ng/ml and, while he was interested, he pretty much stuck to the standard 0.2 ng/ml definition of BCR and would be using it in the decision-making process.

I did mention that I’m in no rush to start anything (i.e., salvage treatments) until we know exactly what we’re dealing with, and that quality of life is high on my priority list if and when we get to that point.

So that’s that. No real surprises. No real revelations. Just keep on keepin’ on.

On that happy note, remember that September is Prostate Cancer Awareness month. (Hard to believe it’s only a week away! My time flies when you’re having fun…)

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Month 69 – On Reflection

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It’s been a week since my last PSA results came in—it seems like eons ago—and I really have been able to just ignore them for pretty much the entire time. That’s good.

With the yo-yo movement in my PSA over the last 4 tests, I can’t conclude much of anything aside from the fact that there will be more PSA testing in my future.

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The engineer in me reflected on the last year of testing looking for some logical explanation.

I do remember that a year ago, just before the September test, I made the mistake of having an orgasm within 24 hours of the test. I thought that may have explained in the increase from undetectable to 0.05 ng/ml. But then the doctor threw in the possibility of the new ultra sensitive PSA test skewing the results. Two variables that weren’t present for the previous undetectable test.

For the December and April tests, I eliminated one variable by abstaining from orgasms for a nearly a week before the blood draw. The doctor asked me to abstain for two weeks for the August test, and I did.

If the next PSA test 3–4 months from now stays in the 0.05–0.08 range, I’ll be more inclined to think that this is a result in the change to the ultra sensitive test and nothing more. (Part of me wants to go to another lab for an independent test and see what it produces, but that will just introduce one more variable when we’re trying to eliminate them.)

At 0.05–0.08 ng/ml, I’m still well below the widely accepted biochemical recurrence threshold of 0.2 ng/ml. That generally makes me breathe a sigh of relief, and I think that I can come to terms with living with those numbers if that’s all it is.

But a UCLA study published in May 2015 showed that, under certain conditions, the ultra sensitive PSA threshold of 0.03 ng/ml was a good predictor of recurrence.  Yes, it was a small (247 patients) retrospective study, but that little fact has stuck in the back of my mind and gives me concern. (I wrote in more detail about it in my Day 1,768 post.)

There was also a Johns Hopkins study published in February 2016 that also indicated that low PSA levels measured by an ultra-sensitive PSA test were predictors of recurrence.

So I’m going to just wait until the doctor appointment on 23 August and see what she has to say about all this. It will be interesting—maybe even entertaining.

Day 2,093 – The Results

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PSA Trend 20160803The results are in: 0.05 ng/ml.

I simultaneously breathed a humongous sigh of relief and got pissed off. “Will you make up your freakin’ mind already!?!?” Yes, I’m elated that my PSA actually came down from 0.08 to 0.05, but I’m pissed that this raises more questions than it will answer, and that I’m going to have to keep riding this wild roller coaster for the foreseeable future.

This round was particularly tough, emotionally. I usually never get worked up in advance of the blood draw but, before heading off to the clinic Monday morning, I was so nervous that I ate one spoonful of yogurt and decided that, if I continued, I’d be seeing that yogurt again going in the opposite direction.

When I finally saw that the results had been uploaded to my provider’s website tonight, my hand on the mouse was shaking and I truly didn’t want to click on the link to get the news. Not good. (By the way, I learned that my provider only uploads the data once a day, around midnight Eastern Time. That sucks.)

It will be interesting to see what the urologist has to say on 23 August. I’m sure part of it will be, “Let’s retest in December.” Yippee. I’m still quite concerned that I have a detectable PSA (albeit a low value) where I didn’t have before. What’s up with that?

Well, I’m spent. It’s time to call it a night. Thanks to everyone for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers.

Day 2,091 – Off for the Blood Draw

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So I’m off to get my blood drawn for the next PSA test. (Those 4 months went by faster than I expected.)

Anyone want to get a pool going on what the results will be? (Hey, you got to have some fun with this crap, right??) My money is on somewhere between 0.95 ng/ml and 0.12 ng/ml. It was 0.08 ng/ml in April. Of course, if it doubles like it did from December to April, that would put it at a scary 0.16 ng/ml.

My real desire is for it to be 0.08 or less, but in my mind, I’ve been preparing for it to be in that 0.95–0.12 range. Expect the worst; hope for the best; deal with the facts once they’re known.

I’ll keep you posted as I log into my health account every hour on the hour for the next three days searching for the result. The appointment with the urologist to go over the results and potential next steps is on 23 August.

Month 68 – Waiting for the Next PSA Test

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This will be a short post this month—my brain has been prostate cancer-ed out after the last few months and needs a respite for a few weeks before I buckle in for the roller coaster ride that is the next PSA test.

Speaking of the next PSA test, I’m planning on going in for the blood draw right around 1-3 August 2016. We’ll have to see how my schedule looks that week.

My urologist has authorized me to get the blood draw as of 1 July, so I could go in tomorrow if I really wanted to, but I’m going to do my best to stick to the first week of August to preserve the even spacing of the last three tests—pretty close to exactly four months apart ( 3 December–6 April; 6 April–3 August).

If I lose my willpower and go early, I’ll let you know.

This week also offered up some major news on the prostate cancer front with a shift towards genetic testing to help determine how to best treat prostate cancer. You can read more about it in this Washington Post article, Leading researchers recommend major change in prostate cancer treatment.

Life After Radical Prostatectomy: 66 Months Later

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So it’s been 66 months since my radical prostatectomy. How am I doing?

Honestly? Scared. Afraid of the cancer coming back.

Status

Since my 60-month update in January, we learned that my PSA doubled from what it was in December 2015: 0.04 ng/ml to now 0.08 ng/ml in April 2016. That’s still below the recurrence threshold of 0.2 ng/ml, but obviously moving in the wrong direction. In four weeks, I’ll go for another PSA test and we’ll just have to wait and see what happens with it.

Emotions

Yep. There’s been plenty of emotions in the last six months.

When I saw the PSA at 0.08 in early April, it was as though I was knocked off a horse, fell to the ground, and had the wind completely knocked out of me. Dazed, confused, and not even sure that I wanted to try and get up. It took until early June before my emotional response subsided and I got back into a more normal mindset.

Incontinence

I continued with my weight loss program (90 lbs. / 40.8 kg), and that has certainly helped with my incontinence. Very rarely do I have any leakage at this point.

Sexual Function

I continue to do so-so in the ED department. Remember, I have only one nerve bundle remaining, but I can get an 80%–90% erection most of the time. Some days are better; others are worse.

I do find that my libido is still there, and there are times through the day where I can feel things stirring down below. Not enough to obtain a natural erection—those days are gone—but enough that with a little stimulation, it would be much easier to achieve an erection.

Summary

Yes, I’m one of the 98% of men diagnosed with prostate cancer to hit the five year survival mark. But with elevated and apparently increasing PSA readings over the last 10 months, what’s in my future is uncertain. (With the exception of two certainties: 1) An unending series of PSA tests ahead and 2) the thought of cancer ever-present in my mind.)