Day 5,774 – PSA Results & Thoughts on ADT + ARPI

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, Prostate Cancer, Side Effects2 Comments

I overachieved on this post. Normally, reporting PSA results would be quite simple and short. Not this time. The act of writing helps me organize my research and rationalize treatment decisions. Thanks for your indulgence!

I went for my PSA test this morning, 1 September, and it was 3.32 ng/mL, up from 2.65 ng/mL back in May.

I expected my PSA to go up, and I guessed it would be around 3.0 ng/mL, so the amount it went up was a bit of a surprise. It’s closing in on my PSA level at initial diagnosis, 5.0 ng/mL.

PSA Doubling Time

Seeing as both the VA and UCSD medical oncologists (MO) stressed the importance of using PSA doubling time (PSADT) to guide treatment decisions during my meetings with them in June, I really wanted to try to nail down how it should be calculated.

The Memorial Sloan-Kettering PSADT Calculator is a great tool that I’ve been using, but it doesn’t provide any guidance on how many data points should be used over what period of time. I finally found some definitive guidance:

PSA values need not be consecutively rising and all values obtained over a maximum period of 12 months should be included in the calculation. The maximum period of the past 12 months is recommended to reflect the patient’s current disease activity, since in some men PSADT may change over time. Minimum requirements for the calculation are 3 PSA values obtained over 3 months with a minimum of 4 weeks between measurements.1

Based on those guidelines, my PSADT is:

Number of PSA Values UsedGoing back over X monthsPSA Doubling Time (Months)
36
(3 March 2026)		14.8
49
(1 December 2025)		9.0
512
(2 September 2025)		8.8
Source: MSKCC PSA Doubling Time Calculator

You can see that I’m sitting right around that nine-month PSADT point that’s the suggested trigger for action. I’m going to keep my mouth shut and ask my MO to calculate the PSADT and see what number they come up with.

Obviously, I’m concerned, but not panicked by this jump in my PSA. I’ll email the MO to see if we should stick to the current plan of having a CT scan on 23 November, or move it to an earlier date. Or to have another PSMA PET scan. In my mind, I’d like to have at least one more scan to try and see if we can determine what we’re dealing with before leaping into combination hormone therapy.

Combination Therapy

The MO’s were really encouraging action if my PSADT was nine months or less because, with faster doubling times, there is high risk of metastasis and prostate cancer-specific mortality. The action that they’re recommending is intermittent combination therapy using androgen deprivation therapy (ADT) plus an androgen receptor pathway inhibitor (ARPI). The specific drugs they’re recommending are Eligard® (leuprolide acetate) (ADT) and Xtandi® (enzalutamide) (ARPI). The Eligard® would stop the production of testosterone, and the Xtandi® would block the cancer cells from absorbing testosterone.

The reason that the MOs want to use the combination therapy is because of the results that were shown in the EMBARK trial. Using Eligard® and Xtandi® together had 87.3% of patients in the trial reach the five-year point metastasis-free. Using just Eligard® alone—the old standard of care—just 71.4% of patients were metastasis-free at five years. The combination therapy won’t prevent progression to metastasis; it just slows it down. This short (2 min.) video from the New England Journal of Medicine gives a good overview:

The combination therapy would be given intermittently, with nine months on the medication and, if my PSA drops to a certain level (usually below 0.2 ng/mL) and stays there, there wouldn’t be a need to restart the combination therapy until there’s a rise in my PSA.

The one thing that I couldn’t find or confirm in my research was if there was a specific PSA level where, if you exceed it, this combination therapy should be started. The UCSD MO seemed okay with waiting until it was as high as 5 to 10 ng/mL if the PSADT didn’t indicate high risk.

Xtandi® (enzalutamide) is just one of several drugs known as Androgen Receptor Pathway Inhibitors (ARPIs). Two others that are commonly used include ERLEADA® (apalutamide) and NUBEQA® (darolutamide). Each has its own similar, but slightly different side effects.

Side Effects / Adverse Events

Messing around with your hormones can have substantial and sometimes debilitating side effects and, when using combination therapy, they can be additive. The National Cancer Institute has defined five grades of adverse events based on their severity:

GradeImpact
Grade 1Mild; asymptomatic or mild symptoms; clinical or diagnostic observations only; intervention not indicated.
Grade 2Moderate; minimal, local or noninvasive intervention indicated; limiting instrumental ADL or mild/moderate impact on age appropriate normal daily activity (pediatric)*.
Grade 3Severe or medically significant but not immediately life threatening; hospitalization or prolongation of hospitalization indicated; disabling; limiting self-care ADL or severe impact on age appropriate normal daily activity (pediatric)**
Grade 4Life-threatening consequences; urgent intervention indicated.
Grade 5Death related to AE.
Notes:Activities of Daily Living (ADL):
*Instrumental ADL refers to preparing meals, shopping for groceries or
clothes, using the telephone, managing money, etc.
**Self-care ADL refers to bathing, dressing and undressing, feeding self,
using the toilet, taking medications.
Source: CTCAE and Adverse Event Reporting

Clearly, a patient would want to steer clear of any Grade 3 or 4 side effects if possible. When you look at the grades of adverse events in the summaries of each of the drugs below, you’ll see that the percentages of patients experiencing an adverse event at all grade levels can be quite high in some cases. Bottom line: ADT + ARPI will adversely impact you and your quality of life in some shape or form. It’s just a matter of degrees.

ERLEADA® (apalutamide) Side Effects

The most common side effects include:

  • Feeling very tired
  • Joint pain
  • Rash
  • Decreased appetite
  • Fall
  • Weight loss
  • High blood pressure
  • Hot flash
  • Diarrhea
  • Fracture

Some of the possible, more severe side effects include:

  • Heart disease, stroke, or mini-stroke
  • Fractures and falls
  • Lung problems
  • Seizures
  • Severe skin reactions

And you can see what percent of the time that patients experienced some of these side effects by adverse event grade in section 6.1 of the prescribing information HERE or in these tables HERE. Some of the Grade 3 or 4 adverse events occurred as much as 8% of the time.

NUBEQA® (darolutamide) Side Effects

The most common side effects include:

  • Increase in liver function tests
  • Decreased white blood cells (neutropenia)
  • Feeling more tired than usual

Some of the possible, more severe side effects include:

  • Heart Disease
  • Seizure

And you can see what percent of the time that patients experienced some of these side effects by adverse event grade in section 6.1 of the prescribing information HERE. Some of the Grade 3 or 4 adverse events occurred as much as 4% of the time.

Xtandi® (enzalutamide) Side Effects

The most common side effects include:

  • Muscle and joint pain
  • Feeling more tired than usual
  • Hot flashes
  • Constipation
  • Decreased appetite
  • Diarrhea
  • High blood pressure
  • Bleeding problems
  • Falls
  • Bone fractures
  • Headache

Some of the possible, more severe side effects include:

  • Seizure
  • Posterior Reversible Encephalopathy Syndrome (PRES) (Involves the brain with seizure or quickly worsening symptoms such as headache, decreased alertness, confusion, reduced eyesight, blurred vision or other visual problems)
  • Allergic reactions
  • Heart disease
  • Falls and bone fractures
  • Swallowing problems or choking (because of the size of the pills)

And you can see what percent of the time that patients experienced some of these side effects by adverse event grade in section 6.1 of the prescribing information HERE. Some of the Grade 3 or 4 adverse events occurred as much as 9% of the time.

Eligard® (leuprolide acetate) Side Effects

The most common side effects include:

  • Hot flashes
  • Fatigue (tiredness)
  • Testicular atrophy
  • Weakness
  • Muscle pain
  • Dizziness
  • Clamminess
  • Testicular shrinkage
  • Decreased erections
  • Enlargement of breasts
  • Decrease in bone density

Some of the possible, more severe side effects include:

  • Heart attack
  • Elevated blood sugar and increased risk of developing diabetes
  • Convulsions

And you can see what percent of the time that patients experienced some of these side effects by adverse event grade in section 6.1 of the prescribing information HERE.

Anecdotal Side Effect Experiences

One of the side effects that isn’t specifically mentioned above was cognitive decline. In a study, it was shown:

Patients with advanced prostate cancer treated with enzalutamide (Xtandi) had a significantly greater decline in cognitive function compared with those who received darolutamide (Nubeqa), according to results from a phase II trial.

Median cognitive change in the maximally changed cognitive domain (MCCD) from baseline to 24 weeks was -15.8% for those receiving darolutamide versus -36.1% for those receiving enzalutamide (P=0.009), reported Alicia Morgans, MD, MPH, of the Dana-Farber Cancer Institute and Harvard Medical School in Boston.2

I’m a member of an online support forum for advanced prostate cancer on HealthUnlocked, and one of the common themes of other patients who have been on Xtandi® (enzalutamide) is significant “brain fog.” Many had such severe side effects that they stopped taking Xtandi® (enzalutamide), with one patient calling it “poison.”

Now, I take what’s said in forums like that with more than a grain of salt. There’s definitely some selection bias going on—patients who are having difficulties with their treatments are more likely to talk about them in a forum than those whose treatments are going well. We just don’t know how many are out there who have minimal side effects and tolerate the treatments well.

Drug Interactions

I surprise medical professionals when they ask me to list my current prescriptions because I only have one: amlodipine to manage hypertension. I checked on Drugs.com to see if any of the four drugs above will interact with the amlodipine:

  • Eligard® (leuprolide acetate) = Unknown interactions
  • ERLEADA® (apalutamide) = Major interaction
  • NUBEQA® (darolutamide) = Minor interaction
  • Xtandi® (enzalutamide) = Major interaction

Because a well-known side effect of ADT is osteoporosis/bone density loss, patients are usually given calcium and vitamin D supplements to slow or minimize the loss. Interactions with calcium and vitamin D:

  • Eligard® (leuprolide acetate) = Unknown interactions
  • ERLEADA® (apalutamide) = No information
  • NUBEQA® (darolutamide) = Unknown interaction
  • Xtandi® (enzalutamide) = Moderate interaction

Clearly, we’re going to have to have a discussion about the amlodipine before starting anything because it has made a difference. My systolic number has dropped by 33 points and my diastolic number has dropped by 24 points. Part of that may be the amlodipine, and part may be the fact that I’ve lost 44 lbs. / 20 kg since starting the amlodipine (or both).

Timing of Starting ADT + ARPI Therapy

You may recall back in April, I shared an AnCan Foundation video of a seminar featuring Dr. Ravi Madan and Dr. Melissa Abel from the National Cancer Institute (NCI). In it, they raise the notion that with new PSMA PET scans, we may be moving too quickly to treat biochemically recurrent prostate cancer and may be overtreating patients, subjecting them to the side effects of ADT either unnecessarily or prematurely.

From the video notes:

Dr. Paul Schellhammer, said in the meeting, ‘it’s like listening 15 years ago to the folks who began to promote active surveillance (in first line treatment).” Dr. Madan and Dr. Abel have collected solid data from around 150 patients that suggests men with slow PSA doubling times can “play the long game” as Dr. Ravi calls it, and defer active treatment when their disease recurs.

Just like the concept of active surveillance, this approach does seem counterintuitive. It’s a novel take that probably isn’t that widely accepted yet, but when you watch the video and look at the data, it makes sense. They’re not saying that treatment won’t be required at some point; they’re just making a case for delaying the treatment in order to maintain quality of life, especially if nothing is showing up on scans.

One difference in their approach is that they define a high risk PSA doubling time to be in the three to six month range, instead of the widely accepted less than nine month range.

Dr. Madan wrote a very interesting paper on this topic that I highly encourage you to read. It was published in the Journal of Clinical Oncology in September 2022, With New Technology Comes Great Responsibility: Prostate-Specific Membrane Antigen Imaging in Recurrent Prostate Cancer

Summary

I have to admit that the NCI doctors have me thinking more and more about the timing of starting this combination therapy because, let’s face it, no one leaps at the opportunity to go on hormone therapy given the “fun” side effects that it brings.

When I was on Eligard® (leuprolide acetate) during my salvage radiation therapy, I tolerated it probably better than most men do. I had mild to moderate fatigue; was more emotional; lost most of my libido; but avoided hot flashes, weight gain, and some of the other common side effects. The unknown is adding the ARPI to the mix.

Of the three ARPI agents available, Xtandi® (enzalutamide) seems to be the worst when it comes to side effects and patient experiences relayed in the prostate cancer forum. Of course, that’s the ARPI that the VA apparently uses in its treatment. NUBEQA® (darolutamide) seems to have the similar results when it comes to delaying metastasis with fewer side effects,3 so you can bet I’ll be having a conversation about this option with the medical oncologist when the time comes.

If you were to ask me right now what I plan on doing, my short answer is, “I don’t know.”

On the one hand, my PSADT hovering right around the action point and has been for some time now. Is that alone reason to act?

In his video, Dr. Madan basically concluded that, if your PSADT is >6 months and you don’t have any cancer showing up on scans, you can just continue to monitor the PSA without starting the hormone therapy—in other words, active surveillance for biochemical recurrence. As I recall, he observed patients for several years with increasing PSAs and consistently negative scans. Do I roll the dice based on his research and conclusions?

That’s one of the reasons that I want to have at least one more scan before committing one way or the other.

Once again, I’m in yet another decision dilemma with the science pulling in different directions.

Depending on what the VA MO says, I may also solicit the input of the UCSD MO one more time and go from there. I’m also open to thoughts and experiences from you.

More to come, that’s for sure.

Be well!

  1. Arlen PM, Bianco F, Dahut WL, D’Amico A, Figg WD, Freedland SJ, Gulley JL, Kantoff PW, Kattan MW, Lee A, Regan MM, Sartor O; Prostate Specific Antigen Working Group. Prostate Specific Antigen Working Group guidelines on prostate specific antigen doubling time. J Urol. 2008 Jun;179(6):2181-5; discussion 2185-6. doi: 10.1016/j.juro.2008.01.099. Epub 2008 Apr 18. PMID: 18423743; PMCID: PMC2667701. ↩︎
  2. https://www.medpagetoday.com/meetingcoverage/asco/121394 ↩︎
  3. Nubeqa Combo Improves Outcomes in Metastatic Prostate Cancer ↩︎

Header image: Boats in San Diego Harbor, California

September is Prostate Cancer Awareness Month

On By DanIn Prostate Cancer2 Comments

November will mark the 16-year mark since my diagnosis with prostate cancer, and I’ve been riding that roller coaster ever since. Despite a radical prostatectomy (surgery) and salvage radiation therapy with concurrent androgen deprivation (hormone) therapy, it’s hanging on and continues to do its thing.

When I was diagnosed, I was completely oblivious to anything about prostate cancer, and I scrambled to get as smart as I could as quickly as I could so that I could make informed, researched treatment decisions.

The best time to learn about prostate cancer is before you are diagnosed with prostate cancer. That’s where Prostate Cancer Awareness Month comes into play.

Prostate Cancer Facts

  • Prostate cancer often has no symptoms (I was asymptomatic).
  • 1 in 8 men in the U.S. will be diagnosed with prostate cancer.
  • 1 in 6 black men will be diagnosed with prostate cancer.
  • In 2025, there were 313,780 cases, or one every two minutes.
  • There were 35,770 deaths, or one death every 15 minutes in 2025.
  • A simple prostate specific antigen (PSA) blood test can give an early warning to the possible presence of prostate cancer.

You can learn more at these great organizations:

You don’t have to become a prostate cancer scholar, but it would be worth an hour or so to learn about the disease, how it progresses, and the various treatment options that are available. With luck, you’ll never have to put that education to use but, if you do, you’ll have a head start.

Be well!

Month 189 – Hourglass & Graveyards

On By DanIn Prostate Cancer9 Comments

Okay. A little explanation is required. I started writing this post back in June and found myself working on it into July and then just sitting on it through August. It’s not that I thought the content wasn’t worthy, it’s just that I wanted to keep tweaking it and tweaking it. Enough. Before getting into the original post, here’s a more normal update on what’s next in tracking my prostate cancer.

Update

I’ve penciled into my calendar my next PSA test next week. It will be interesting to see if it continues to increase at a slower pace or return to a faster climb. Once I have the results and PSA doubling time calculated, I’ll contact the medical oncologist (MO) to see what our next steps should be.

You may recall that the original plan was to do a CT scan which I have scheduled 23 November with a follow-up with the MO on 8 December. The PSA results may dictate that we reevaluate that plan and do something sooner.

Of course, the MO was all hot-to-trot to put me on intermittent Eligard + enzalutamide back in June, and I’m guessing they’ll continue that recommendation. Part of the research that I’ve done does seem to confirm that starting that combination therapy earlier has shown delay time to metastasis, so I’m seriously considering it knowing the likely side effects that come with it. I’m all ears from those who may have insights.

I hope to get back on my regular posting schedule in September, which is Prostate Cancer Awareness Month.

And now, our featured presentation…

Hourglass & Graveyards

I was originally pretty excited about writing this post, because I was planning it to be a tongue-in-cheek talk about me entering what I was going to call the “ancestral death zone” by outliving the first of my six immediate ancestors (parents and grandparents). By my calculations, that milestone would have occurred on 26 May 2026.

But I goofed.

How did I learn that I goofed? By visiting graveyards.

Life Hourglass

Long-time readers of this blog may recall that, about five years ago, I shared a video of Tim Urban’s TED talk on procrastination. In it, he developed a graphic representation of a 90-year life in the loose form of an hourglass. Of course, you know by now that this spreadsheet nerd had to create my own version. Each horizontal row represents a year lived, each vertical column represents one week in that year, and the blue cells are the weeks that I’ve lived so far.

In order for me to determine if I was entering the “ancestral death zone,” I had to calculate and plot how many weeks each of my ancestors lived. I also threw in the average of all of them and the life expectancy of a U.S. male and plotted them in different colors on the hourglass.

The hourglass is visually impressive, but the spreadsheet nerd in me had to take it one step further. I calculated how many days each of my ancestors lived, and then figured out the specific day that I would theoretically check out of this world if I lived as many days as each of them did. A hard “deadline” date packs considerably more “Oomph” than a grid of colored squares.

You can see that I’ve already outlived two of my ancestors but, because of my error, I didn’t realize that until recently. How did I discover the error? Well…

Graveyards

Maternal grandparents, 1960

A few months ago, my sister asked me to see if I could find a particular photo of our father. I couldn’t, but what I did find was a map of the cemetery where my maternal grandparents were buried, with a handwritten note from my mother showing the approximate location.

My grandfather died in 1963 and my grandmother died in 1971 (I was five and thirteen years old, respectively). I hadn’t been to their graves since the mid-1970s before heading off to college, and I had only a vague recollection of their exact location.

Paternal grandparents

That made me think about my paternal grandparents’ graves, too. I knew the cemetery and their general location as well. My paternal grandmother also died in 1971—three weeks before my maternal grandmother—and my grandfather died in 1987. It had been decades since I had been to their graves, too.

During my trip back to Chicago in May, the geography nerd in me decided that I was going to find their graves and actually map them in Google Maps and in an app called What3Words1 so that other family members would know their location. (I also mapped other family members’ graves, too.)

It was during this graveyard scavenger hunt that I discovered that I had my maternal grandmother’s birth year wrong—the one that I used in my hourglass calculations. She was actually born in 1905, not 1901, which meant that I had already outlived my first ancestor and entered the “ancestral death zone” two years ago.

That discovery was a bit of a pleasant surprise—I have already outlived two of my ancestors—but it also took the wind out of my sails for the timing of this post.

Thoughts on the Life Hourglass

One of the main lessons from Tim Urban’s talk was that life moves on whether we want it to or not, and it’s important to take advantage of the time that’s given to us. Yes, it’s cliché, but there’s always a bit of truth in clichés.

Introducing “cancer” to your vocabulary forces you to look at your own mortality, at least during the initial weeks after the shock of the diagnosis. Now, almost sixteen years into this and better educated, I know that I’ll likely die with prostate cancer and not from prostate cancer. But with each failed treatment and each increase in my PSA, that calculation changes just a tad.

Some may view this exercise of creating the life hourglass and calculating death dates as bordering on morbid (or nuts), and that’s okay. I found that it gave me a unique perspective and a reason to be a bit more proactive in pursuing things, from last year’s bucket list trip to New Zealand, to just saying “yes” to everyday opportunities more frequently. (Or, conversely, giving me a reason to say “no” to things that may not be the best use of my time.)

Having this perspective can also make you question things about your time remaining. If I take one or two big trips per year, where will I go to out of all the possible places in the world? If I see friends or family once or twice a year, how many more times will we see each other? That scrutiny has you evaluating your priorities.

From the day we pop into this world, none of us knows when our time will end. Period. My nephew only lived a week, and two of my great-grandparents lived into their mid-90s. We just don’t know.

There isn’t a lot of longevity in our family, with average age at death for my six ancestors at 72.9 years. Dad died at 69 and his mom died at 69, with dad outliving his mom by 50 days. I’ll be 69 early next year and hope to break that trend but, if I don’t and I live 50 days longer than dad, I’ll be checking out on 5 November 2027. That’s not that far away.

While it may seem as though I dwell on this topic, I truly don’t. I don’t plan on going anywhere anytime soon. But, at this point in my life with cancer refusing to succumb to what we’ve thrown at it so far, I’m just a bit more pragmatic about it.

Again, no one and no goofy spreadsheet can predict when it will happen, but we do know it will happen at some point. Accordingly, I’m beginning to take steps that will make it easier for my family members to deal with my affairs once I’m gone (e.g., getting files in order, slowly clearing out things in the house that I haven’t used in ages, etc.). (Remember, I’m single and they live 2,102 miles / 3,383 km away from me.)

Thoughts on Graveyards

When I was in the Navy, I was stationed in Newport, Rhode Island, and I loved the history of being in a town that was founded in 1639. It was interesting to pop into a cemetery and look at some of the 300+ year-old headstones. Some were very basic, and others told a short story about the deceased. An hour and a half away in Boston, you could visit the graves of Paul Revere, Samuel Adams, and John Hancock, key figures in the American Revolution.

One thing I noticed as I wandered through all four of my ancestors’ cemeteries was the inequities even in death. Some graves had simple bronze or granite markers flush with the ground; others were a bit larger, but still modest; and then there were graves marked with towering obelisks on ornate bases that rose 20 or 30 feet (7 – 10 meters) above the ground. Yet, despite the differences in status above ground, the people beneath each of those markers were in the exact same condition. (One of the appeals of a national military cemetery to me is that, whether you were a seaman recruit or an admiral, you get the same headstone.)

This exercise made me think about the whole concept of burials and cemeteries in general.

Obviously, burials have been going on for thousands of years and, in some faiths, it’s a necessary step that’s part of the transition to the hereafter. I also understand that a burial can give a family closure, as well as a means to honor their loved one. Other cultures prefer cremation over burial.

Two of the four cemeteries that I visited were very well kept, and the other two needed some attention to varying degrees. In an older section near my paternal grandparents’ graves, headstones were leaning or simply toppled over. In the cemetery of my other grandparents, the asphalt roads were decomposing into gravel and the grass was in need of cutting.

Perhaps it was a pang of guilt for not having visited some of these graves in more than 50 years that made me ask the question, “Why? Why be buried and have a marker if it’s going to be ignored and neglected over the years?”

Realistically, it’s likely that the spouse, children, or siblings of the deceased are the ones who are going to visit and maintain the grave. But after that, I suspect the grandchildren will likely have little interest and, after them, the marker is just something someone a few decades or centuries later may stand over and ask, “I wonder who this Dan guy was?”

I’m guessing that’s why graves are leased in many countries. In my grandparent’s home country of Germany, you lease a grave for up to 30 years.2 If the family doesn’t keep up with the rent or renew the lease (if allowed), the headstone is removed and someone else is placed in the grave. (Apparently, burials are to be done in such a way where the coffin and body decompose to facilitate putting someone new on top of you. Alternately, your bones may also be removed and placed in an ossuary.)

On the one hand, I would like to think that we keep our departed ancestors’ memories alive in our hearts and minds—I think of my parents daily—and that’s how and where we should reminisce about them. We shouldn’t need to stand over a grave to remember them. Yet, on the other hand, as I visited each of the graves, I felt a stronger connection to them just by standing there and being in their presence.

I also understand our own inherent desire to leave behind some evidence that we existed and that we hopefully made a positive difference in the world. But, realistically, the world remembers the actions of Paul Revere, Samuel Adams, and John Hancock, not their headstones. Their graves are just a historical footnote to their stories.

So what does all of this mean for me? I know that I want to be cremated; it’s just figuring out what to do with me afterwards.

Having my ashes scattered at sea (Navy veteran, duh) has been on my list for a long time, but I also love hanging out in the mountains and have thought about being scattered there instead. Then there’s the issue of having a marker of some sorts. If I feel compelled to have one, where would it be and what would it look like?

I have thought about national cemeteries as a possible option, and there are two here in San Diego.

The first is Fort Rosecrans National Cemetery high atop a bluff on Point Loma overlooking both the Pacific Ocean and San Diego Bay. Unfortunately, with over 101,000 souls already buried there, the cemetery is full and isn’t accepting new interments for either caskets or the columbarium.

Fort Rosecrans National Cemetery
San Diego Bay, Fort Rosecrans National Cemetery

Miramar National Cemetery opened in 2010 and is inland, located adjacent to Marine Corps Air Station Miramar so you get to listen to military jets taking off for eternity.

Miramar National Cemetery
Miramar National Cemetery
Columbarium
Memorial Plaques

The columbarium at Miramar was about what you would expect it to be, but I have to admit that the niches were larger than I thought they needed to be. The niches gave me the feeling of being shoved in a drawer and sealed, and I didn’t find that all that appealing. The cemetery did, however, have a section for memorial plaques, presumably for those whose ashes were scattered elsewhere. I’ll have to check into that as an option if I want one.

Of course, I can change my mind at any time, and my final decision will land in my When I’m Gone binder with all the instructions for my family members, and not here on the blog.

We all know that day will eventually come, so it really shouldn’t be uncomfortable or even taboo to talk about it and what we want to have happen. Yes, I may have taken it to an extreme with the hourglass and date calculations, and that’s okay. If we plan ahead, it will ease the burden on those left behind during one of their most difficult times.

Maybe this has given you some food for thought and, more than anything, just remember:

The clock’s a-tickin’.

Be well!

1 What3Words is a website/app that divides the entire world into three meter by three meter squares and assigns a unique three word address to each square. If you have the three word address, you type it into the website/app and it will display that specific square on the map.

2 Depending on the grave type, the family will have to pay $40 to over $300 per year for the lease. The family is also legally required to maintain the grave, so they either do it themselves or hire a grave gardener.

Header image: Fort Rosecrans National Cemetery, San Diego, California

Day 5,705 – Urologist Visit

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, Prostate Cancer1 Comment

Before getting into the conversation with the urologist, I went for my bone density scan last week. The results? I have bones. They’re dense (i.e., normal). Now we have a baseline for future reference for if and when I start down the hormone therapy path.

Yesterday’s meeting with the urologist was unusually animated, if not bordering on contentious. The appointment was late in the afternoon (around 3:45 p.m. when she arrived), so perhaps she had had a crappy day and was ready for it to end.

I tried explaining my conversations with both oncologists, and she kept interrupting, sometimes with questions that made it seem that she wasn’t paying much attention. (She was on her computer reviewing my file as I talked; usually she’ll have reviewed the file before even walking into the exam room.)

At one point she said, “You have three cooks in the kitchen and should probably stick with one,” referring to the fact that I had two oncologists and her trying to manage my case.

When it comes to treatment, she’s still of the opinion to wait until metastasis to start hormone therapy, mainly because of the associated side effects and possible earlier resistance to the therapy. I mentioned that both oncologists recommended intermittent hormone therapy, and she seemed puzzled by that for some unknown reason.

I mentioned that the plan was for me to have another PSA test in the first week of September and, if warranted, a CT scan and bone scan in December. She seemed indifferent and offered no comment one way or the other.

By the end of the appointment, it was pretty clear that she was of the mindset that there’s little that she as a urologist can do at this point in my case management, and that the ball belongs squarely in the court of the oncologists. I agree. She did say, though, that if I start to have urinary symptoms that may be from the radiation or surgery (e.g., strictures, worsening incontinence), to come back to Urology for investigation and possible treatment. We did not set up a follow-up appointment for Urology.

Back in April, the oncologist suggested they take the lead on my case and, after yesterday’s appointment with the urologist, it’s clear that that’s what needs to happen.

I’ve got the PSA test on my calendar on 2 September. We’ll get the results, calculate PSA doubling time, and consult with the oncologists to determine the next steps based on the results.

If my PSA shoots up again like it did between December and March, reducing my PSA DT, I might be more inclined to act. But if it continues on a flatter trend like it did between March and May, I’d be inclined to kick the can down the road another three months.

So I’ll continue to live life in three-month increments until the results tell me it’s time to do something. Good thing I have a lot of hurry-up-and-wait experience from the Navy. 🙂

Be well!

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Day 5,683 – Medical Oncologist Visits

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, imaging, Prostate Cancer, Recurrence, Treatment4 Comments

My visits with the medical oncologists yesterday and today went well, and there was some consensus on how to proceed.

[BLUF: We’re kicking the can down the road three months.]

UCSD Oncologist

The first part of the meeting was getting the doctor up to speed on my case, as he didn’t have any of the history. Of course, nerd me came prepared with a two-page Reader’s Digest chronological summary of my diagnosis and treatment, printouts of my PSA charts, and copies of the PSA doubling time (PSA DT) calculations.

PSA Doubling Time

Because PSA DT is an important number in the decision-making process, I opened the conversation by asking him how many data points should be used in the calculations. He chuckled a bit before saying that one of the downfalls of using PSA DT is you can pick and choose the data that you want to get the answer that you want. So true.

I calculated my PSA DT using 3, 4, and 5 values and came up with different answers:

Number of values usedGoing back X monthsCalculated PSA DT
367.6 months
498.0 months
5149.2 months

He just looked at the curve on my PSA tracking chart and estimated in his head that it was around nine months. In his eyes, that six to nine month PSA DT warrants closer observation and monitoring.

Inconclusive PSMA PET scans

We discussed my four inconclusive PSMA PET scans and [F18] FDG PET scan, and whether he thought that I was PSMA negative. He thought it was unlikely that I was, offering up a case with another patient whose PSA was over 50 ng/mL and still showing up negative on PSMA PET scans.

One of the reasons that we talked about that at some length was that he suggested that Pluvicto / Lutetium-177 might be an option.

I asked about getting an Axumin scan or a Choline-11 scan, and he wasn’t in favor of doing either of those at the moment.

When to Start ADT

We also discussed when to start androgen deprivation (hormone) therapy (ADT). He didn’t have a set of specific criteria that he would use—e.g., specific PSA number, evidence of metastasis—but did focus in on the rate of PSA rise (PSA DT) and “patient motivations and preferences.”

What type of ADT

The doctor was a proponent of intermittent therapy in my case with six to twelve months on, then a similar period off. His goal would be to “maximize time off treatment” as long as my PSA is holding relatively steady and not going bonkers.

He seemed a tad hesitant to start with the combination therapy of ADT + ARPI (Eligard + Enzalutamide), but wasn’t opposed to it, either. He wasn’t a fan of trying the Enzalutamide alone because of its side effects (gynecomastia, in particular) and not seeing any substantial changes in long term outcomes.

Summary

I did share with the doctor the VA MO’s desire to start ADT + ARPI sooner rather than later, and he had a much lower sense of urgency in taking action. And, while I was a bonehead and didn’t explicitly ask him for his recommended course of action, the entire conversation led me to conclude that his preference was for continued close observation.

VA Oncologist

I technically didn’t meet with the oncologist; I met with a nurse practitioner who had reviewed my case with the oncologist just before (and during) my appointment.

Discussion

It was interesting that she opened the conversation with a quick review of my last appointment there, told me my PSA results from last week, and then said something along the lines of, “If you’re not ready to start ADT today, the doctor is okay with monitoring for another three months.”

At that point, I mentioned that I went to the UCSD MO the day before, and I spent a good chunk of time relaying how that meeting went.

I reminded her that I have the bone density scan in a few weeks and I intended to go through with that to establish a baseline even though we might not start ADT right away. She agreed.

I’m still meeting with the VA urologist on 23 June and want to get their thoughts on what’s next.

Summary

We’re going to do another PSA test in September, and the VA MO didn’t want to schedule an appointment with me until December with another PSA test just before that meeting, too. Interestingly, the VA MO also wanted to schedule a regular CT scan and bone scan ahead of the December appointment.

However, if the September PSA test jumps up significantly, we’ll revisit that plan based on the results. That may change doing the CT/Bone scans to another PSMA PET scan.

The Plan

In short, we’re going to kick the can down the road another three months.

More specifically:

  • Bone density scan – 17 June
  • Urologist appointment – 23 June
  • PSA test – First week of September
  • CT and Bone scan – First week of December
  • PSA test – First week of December
  • VA Oncology Appointment – 8 December

Summary

On the whole, I’m pleased with the plan as it stands right now. The UCSD MO emphasized the shared decision-making approach, adding in his notes, “Daniel is very well educated about his illness and understands there is no clearcut right and wrong answer.” Ain’t that the truth (about the no right or wrong answer).

Once I cleared the hurdles of getting set up in the UCSD system, I was impressed by the friendliness and professionalism of their staff in the department. They have a patient portal app that allows access to records and makes communicating about appointments—in both directions—quite easy.

One thing that I’ve noticed with both the VA and UCSD oncology departments is that their empathy and caring nature seems to be a notch or two above that of their respective urology departments. Not that the urology teams aren’t caring or empathetic; it’s just that the oncology folks seem to take it a step further.

I know the VA MO expressed a desire to take the lead on my case at my last appointment, and I’ll mention that to the urologist on the 23rd. And, for now, as pleasant as the experience at UCSD was, I plan on having the VA be my primary source of care.

More to come.

Be well!

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Day 5,677 – PSA Results

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, Prostate Cancer1 Comment

I went for my PSA test this morning and already have the results this afternoon (a pleasant surprise).

My PSA increased, but not as much as I expected it to. It went from 2.52 ng/mL in March to 2.65 ng/mL today.

If I use the last five PSA values to calculate PSA doubling time going back 14 months, my PSA DT is 9.2 months. If I use the last four PSA values going back only nine months, it’s 8.0 months. Again, the VA medical oncologist used the nine month PSA DT one of the triggers to start hormone therapy.

Armed with these latest results, I should be ready for my upcoming appointments:

Monday, 1 June – UCSD Medical oncologist

Tuesday, 2 June – VA Medical oncologist

Wednesday, 17 June – Bone density scan to establish baseline

Tuesday, 23 June – VA Urologist

I definitely plan on asking the UCSD MO what his thoughts are on an Axumin scan, and whether it’s worth pursuing before we start hormone therapy. If he agrees, I’ll have to add that to the schedule, too.

I also had another testosterone test done to establish a baseline should I opt to start hormone therapy. It came in at 416 ng/dL (reference range 200-800 ng/dL).

Over the holiday weekend, UCSD sent an automated email asking me to complete their electronic check-in process. Sheesh. It took more than an hour of filling out forms, providing history, and updating insurance. The only thing they didn’t ask for was our family cat’s name from when I was five years old. Hopefully, getting all that taken care of in advance makes the appointment go more smoothly.

More to come. Be well!

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Day 5,665 – UCSD Appointment

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, imaging, Prostate CancerLeave a comment

Finally. Things have fallen into place when it comes to getting my second opinion with the UCSD medical oncologist.

The scheduler called this morning and the first available appointment was Monday, 1 June, so I took it. That works out great because I’ll have brand new PSA test results from the week before, and I’m scheduled to see the VA medical oncologist the next day on Tuesday, 2 June.

The only potential hiccup in making this happen is getting my records from the VA to UCSD. The scheduler said it could take a week or two to make that happen, and that’s pushing it. I’ll try to grease the skids on the VA side if I can.

The two main lines of questioning that I’ll have for the UCSD MO are:

  1. Do the negative PSMA and FDG PET scans warrant an Axumin scan in an effort to see where the cancer is?
  2. What is your recommendation for when to start ADT and what type of ADT treatment I should be on? Single? Double?

I’m sure I’ll come up with more questions between now and then. I also won’t tell him what the VA MO’s plan is to make sure I get his unbiased opinion first. Once he lets me know his thoughts, I’ll him know they want to start me on Eligard and Enzalutamide.

Fingers crossed that the records get transferred in time.

Have a great weekend!

Be well!

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Month 186 – What a Month

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, Incontinence, Prostate Cancer, RecurrenceLeave a comment

We last left our hero with the beginning of a head cold after his scan and oncologist meeting. And, boy, what a head cold that turned out to be.

Normally, a typical head cold lasts a week or so and you’re back to normal. Not this time. This was the most stubborn virus, hanging on for three weeks and change. It was ugly. So ugly, in fact, that I went to the doctor for help.

The cold started out with a light fever and lots and lots of coughing. Of course, when you have your prostate plucked from your pelvis and they zap what’s left, stress incontinence is an issue. If I have a light cough, I’m generally okay, but with this virus, I was having deep coughs where it seemed as though I was trying to turn my lungs inside out. I had to switch to the heavy-duty incontinence pads and, even then, I blew out two of them with coughing fits, leaking into my underwear and jeans. Messy and not fun.

The doctor gave me something to calm the dry coughs, and that had a bit of a positive effect. But then my sinuses filled, my nose was running, and I was coughing up phlegm so I switched to something else to deal with that.

Long story shorter, it’s pretty much all behind me now, and that’s a good thing. Maybe I’ll go back to the COVID days and wear masks when riding packed transit or wandering the halls of hospitals.

While I was down for the count, I had plenty of time to dig into more about androgen deprivation therapy (ADT), its pros and cons, and the timing of starting it. Sadly, I could find information that supported pretty much any perspective you wanted, which really isn’t all that helpful.

On the whole, it appears the current thinking is to start ADT sooner rather than later, and to use a doublet therapy, i.e., ADT + ARPI. This seems to delay time to metastasis, but has the obvious cost of substantial side effects.

On a related note, I called UCSD on 30 April to set up a second opinion appointment with the medical oncologist that’s well-respected and that the VA called to consult on my case two years ago. Because I was already in their system, that helped a little. I had to update my insurance information, and they said they’d get back to me in 2-3 business days. They didn’t, so I called back today, 11 May. They put me on the “high priority” call-back list this afternoon to be called back “between now and 48 hours.” Okie-dokie. And they say scheduling appointments at the VA is difficult…

I’ve got a number of appointments coming up at the end of May and into June:

27 May – PSA Test and other pre-ADT labs ordered by the oncologist

2 June – Meeting with VA medical oncologist

17 June – Dexa Scan bone density scan for baseline

23 June – Meeting with VA urologist

With luck, I’ll be able to add the UCSD medical oncologist to that list as well.

I really want the PSA test results—specifically, the PSA doubling time—to be a guide into what happens next and when.

One of the other things that I dug into a bit when I was down with the cold was how many values to use when calculating PSADT. As expected, there were dozens of different answers. Grr. My pea-sized engineer’s brain decided that I’ll use the last four PSA values if they cover at least a year. To me, that would render more useful information that shows the latest trend versus loading in all data points that may skew the results to show something less aggressive. But what do I know?

Using the Memorial Sloan-Kettering PSADT calculator and four data points over the last year, my PSADT is 8.9 months. Using a second calculator I found, it’s 8.21 months. For grins and giggles, I plugged in the last two years worth of data, and my PSADT was 10.4 months. Doing my research on ADT, PSADTs in the 6-9 month range seemed to be a trigger for action.

My PSA in March was 2.52 ng/mL, and I suspect it will be approaching 3.0 ng/mL at the end of May.

Obviously, this summer will be a series of data collection, evaluation, and big decision-making. Yippee! <sarcasm font>

Stay tuned for more.

Be well!

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Day 5,635 – Unexpected Call

On By DanIn Hormone Therapy, Prostate Cancer, Recurrence, Treatment4 Comments

I’m not sure how I managed it, but I picked up a nasty head cold after yesterday’s meeting with the oncologist. Perhaps it was from being at the hospital two days in a row, or from me riding our commuter-packed light rail system to get to the hospital (stops right at the hospital) that did me in, but whatever bug I caught kicked in around 5 p.m. yesterday.

Around 7 p.m. tonight, I was nursing the head cold, watching the ballgame on television when my phone rang, and I was surprised to see it was a call from the VA.

It was the head of the urology department inquiring about continuing my pelvic floor therapy at a community provider. (You may recall that I started that back in December, and the original end date of the therapy was 2 April.) I told her that the therapist and I agreed that I had plateaued and didn’t see a need for me to continue.

Not one to miss an opportunity, I mentioned me meeting with the oncologists yesterday and asked her for her take on whether starting hormone therapy would be appropriate. I also mentioned the negative scan results. She was more of the mindset of waiting until there was evidence of spread, and she said, “I wouldn’t chase numbers,” when I mentioned my current PSA level.

She noted that I had the follow-up with the oncologists on 2 June and a follow-up with urology on 23 June, and said we can review things then.

Once again, the “experts” offer differing approaches, and it’s up to us, the patient, to pick and choose what’s best. After 15 years, it’s not a surprise, but it still is frustrating at times. MO Jr. did mention that it may be appropriate to convene the “Tumor Board” to get all the key players in the same room and review the case for the best course of action.

At this point, I’m inclined to get the PSA test at the end of May and, with that new information, try to push to get everyone in the same room for a discussion of next steps forward. Or at least have them convene the Tumor Board without me.

In the meantime, I’m just going to curl up in a ball and try to get the worst of this head cold behind me before the weekend.

Be well!

Header image: Anza-Borrego Desert, California